damn this is deep ! i've been going through some rough edges too (although its nowhere near as intense) and some parts of the letter felts like I was reading about myself. How absurd life is, how it feels like everyone is doing better, my insistence on not sharing things and the disappointment that follows when I do and the "touchy"ness of the smallest things when you're sad/depressed. I also think it takes courage and say yeah I am depressed. Depression can have so many faces and it's so ill-represented in media and hard to relate to. And there's really no getting out of the absurd idea of "now I'm happy and now I'm not". I recently feel like I've been organizing life around situations that just exist in my head (exam date, deadlines, poverty, disappointing others) and right now I'm just escaping and assuming everything is going to be okay and that's helping me get through the day with a little more sanity. I got no advice for you but just don't give up and take it slow. Btw I'm glad you're alive and I hope you find a way to work out those thoughts that say you not to..sending a lot of hugs from the interwebs..
I read these words again. I really appreciate that you put forward these... It helps put a perspective of how we all are struggling in our own ways.... Thank you for your kind words... Really appreciate it...
If anything's in your mind to share....at least I can say "drop a letter".
Ya....it feels strange to share...the absurdness of sharing.... :)
damn this is deep ! i've been going through some rough edges too (although its nowhere near as intense) and some parts of the letter felts like I was reading about myself. How absurd life is, how it feels like everyone is doing better, my insistence on not sharing things and the disappointment that follows when I do and the "touchy"ness of the smallest things when you're sad/depressed. I also think it takes courage and say yeah I am depressed. Depression can have so many faces and it's so ill-represented in media and hard to relate to. And there's really no getting out of the absurd idea of "now I'm happy and now I'm not". I recently feel like I've been organizing life around situations that just exist in my head (exam date, deadlines, poverty, disappointing others) and right now I'm just escaping and assuming everything is going to be okay and that's helping me get through the day with a little more sanity. I got no advice for you but just don't give up and take it slow. Btw I'm glad you're alive and I hope you find a way to work out those thoughts that say you not to..sending a lot of hugs from the interwebs..
* reciprocates the virtual hug *
I guess each of us is fighting a different battle (at least, that's the metaphor I am starting to really feel these times... :) ).
Also, I watched this video today...which is eerily inspiring...
[essence of life] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t-PJvdRSPQc
Just wanted to share it...
Hey SG...
I read these words again. I really appreciate that you put forward these... It helps put a perspective of how we all are struggling in our own ways.... Thank you for your kind words... Really appreciate it...
If anything's in your mind to share....at least I can say "drop a letter".
Ya....it feels strange to share...the absurdness of sharing.... :)
thank you for the offer and happy to hear my words could help a bit :) take care